Happy Birthday Baby Girl!

Happy Birthday to my sweet Kit Kat!

I am so proud of the woman that you are becoming.

Remember, you are worthy of so much. Never compromise.

 I love you bunches!

~Mom

Things I Should Have Known

I have some pretty amazing friends. They are looking out for me and trying to help me along my journey. But they keep sending me articles about narcissistic symptoms and saying things like "Who does this remind you of?"


Yes,  everything in this article is familiar to me. Everything.

Happy Birthday A$$hole

Today is the ex's birthday. It still, even today, makes my radar go off.  It was an "important" day for so long now, that is a hard habit to break.


I don't know why. He never appreciated one thing I gave him, even when he said he didn't want anything. He would get mad that I bought him things and the one year that I decided to follow his wishes, he got mad at me then too.


Some people.

Type A All The Way

Yeah, I have Flu Type A.

When the doctor comes in with your excuse, your prescriptions, and this mask, things can't be good. 

Hello....It's Me

I have been thinking about "my son" a lot lately. 


The son I raised and loved as my own for fifteen years. The son who once told my best friend that he understood the difference between me and his biological mother . The fact that I chose him was not lost on him.


The boy I had called "Tigger" was now a man.


I have not seen him in five very long years.
Is he happy?
Is he healthy?
Is he thinking for himself ?
Is he still trying to gain approval?




We have a new kid in our karaoke group who reminds me so much of Tigger that I almost cry every time I see him. The first time I saw him, the resemblance was so uncanny, I had to ask myself if I was dreaming.  He is a very good sport about the resemblance and he jokingly calls me "Mom" when the group is together.  He is the same age. He too, had been separated from his own mother, and he welcomes the motherly attention. He patiently listened to the story about how long it has been since I had seen him, and how there was no telling what he had been told and paid me the sweetest compliment,  wishing I had been his stepmother instead of the woman his own father had ran off with.  He even let me give him a "birthday" hug on Tigger's birthday last December.




I miss Tigger terribly. 


I hope that no other mother would ever have to go through this.

Finally...

The apology I deserve. Not the way I wished it, but an apology just the same.

Happy Valentine's Day

Just when you think you are gonna make it through February 14th, someone does something sweet that almost makes you cry.

Happy Valentine's Day y'all!